Oh Puppy Love

RELEVANT MUSIC FOR THIS POST:



"When you’re near I hide my blushing face
And trip on my shoelaces
Grace just isn’t my forté
But it brings me to my knees when you say
Hello! How are you my darling, today?
I fall into a pile on the floor
Puppy love is hard to ignore
When every little thing you do, I do adore"


If you haven't heard of Mindy Gledhill PLEASE go check her out! I am obsessed with literally everything that woman comes out with! All of her music is so heartwarming and happy :)





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If you've been with me for a while then by now you know that I'm addicted to love. And puppy love is probably my favorite. It's definitely one of the feelings I try to remember as often as I can. Infatuation, a crush, puppy love, admiration, fantasy, it goes by so many names. But we all know the feeling.
That rush in your stomach like the free fall of a roller coaster.
Giggling every time they speak even though what they've said wasn't funny.
Getting excited when they come around and finding yourself bumping into them by 'accident.'
Half-listening and half-watching the adorable way they talk.
Melting when they say your name.
Feeling bashful and slightly awkward with every conversation.
The stuttering.
The clumsiness.
Hugs that you wish lasted longer.
The constant daydreams that you just don't want to end.
Replaying conversations in your mind not realizing the stupid smile on your face.
Feeling like every love song ever must have been written just for you.

It's innocent. It's cutesy. And it's really really mushy.
But it's also fleeting.

For a short time- a day, a week, a month, a year, everything is amazing. You feel amazing. You feel that the other person is truly truly amazing and perfect and cute and everything you could ever want. All you wanna do is hug 'em and kiss 'em for a million years... And then it just ends. Something they did or said, something you did or said, or maybe just time itself has snapped you back to reality and the feelings are gone. Your eyes are suddenly opened and all of those wonderful things you felt become a memory. A distant memory.

"Catch a falling star and put it in your pocket, never let it fade away. 
 Catch a falling star and put it in your pocket, save it for a rainy day."

Just the same way that we remember guilt, regret, sadness, and hate we can bring back the good emotions whenever we want! I have never been in love before, but I've had my fair share of crushes. I tucked all those butterflies away safely in my little pocket and use them whenever I want.

  The Princess Diaries was definitely on to something with that song...
And the song above does a great job of encompassing all the feels.
Isn't it lovely to have a song that matches literally every human emotion and experience?

Doubt

  
So when I don’t necessarily know how to explain something I’m struggling to understand I use one of the many easily accessible resources I have- teh interwebz. I love to research ‘old language’ words from time to time to further my studies of the Word, one of the many things I got from my dad ;) 

Right now I’m focusing on understanding doubt.

Doubt is a big deal. And a fatal one at that. There are a million and one things I can think of on this subject but one I want to share is doubt in God’s promises and abilities.

I encourage you to visit the site to read the full article HERE! 

It’s pretty eye-opening. Of course, I always say take everything with a grain of salt. Because let’s be real; it is the internet guys. Here’s a couple definitions that stuck out to me.

  

Apistea

Strong’s definition: 1. Lacking confidence in the performer, unfaithfulness, faithless. 2. Want of faith, unbelief. 3. Weakness of faith. Description: Doubting God’s willingness or ability to alter the circumstances one is in.

Distazo

Strong’s definition: 1. Doubt/waver. Description: Intellectually reconsidering whether or not something one is believing for can or will occur. Skepticism.

Apistea. He now starts to doubt God’s ability to fulfill His word. His cure is to repent from worrying and direct His trust in God to do what He has said. If he doesn’t do this and continues to worry without putting down that concern, he slips into...
Distazo. He now becomes skeptical and may conclude if it was going to happen, it probably couldn’t happen now, so he may cease to believe as he considers the logic of the situation (as happened with Peter walking on the water). If he doesn’t stick in faith with what he has decided God has shown him, his doubt matures into...
Apeithei. He now consciously disbelieves in God’s promise and may even talk against it! In other words, his "faith" is now in the opposite to what he started out believing for originally! The only cure is full repentance and returning to a position of believing what God has said despite the circumstances he is in.

What does "beauty" mean to you?

It doesn’t matter how many pretty pictures you’ve taken. That pretty dress in your closet. The pageants you’ve won. What color skin you were born in. How perfect your talk is and graceful your walk is.

Transparency - putting yourself, your true self, completely out there on the table.

Allowing people to not only see the good sides of you and your life, but also your weaknesses, your fears, failures, and short-comings.

 Allowing that inner glow you have, and we all have one, to emanate from within you without fear, shame, or apology.

That is what beauty means to me.

Favorite quote and why you love it

Day 4

Yeah so I skipped a day, oh well.

Funny because I find myself quoting movies and TV shows in nearly every conversation. This should have been easy right? WRONG. Like anyone who tries to come up with a favorite quote, or a favorite ANYTHING, I drew a blank.  Surely enough a million and one quotes from all over the place come to the forefront of my mind. It may very well just be the drama queen in me but each one feels so life-changing! 

But a few that I've been thinking about a lot lately are:

Everyone goes through hard times. Life is a roller coaster. We all know what it feels like to be going through something that feels it has no end. But you have to find within yourself a light that will carry you through. If you can't find one, CREATE ONE. Something that no matter what is going on outside in your world, will keep you pushing.

Regret is something I'm all too familiar with. I'm sure you're no stranger to it either. But what is worse? Looking back with regret and resentment for not saying or doing something? Or being able to look back with appreciation, contentment, and maybe even good memories of the things you did? You don't get a lot of chances at some things in life. Maybe once or twice. And very seldom a third. I don't know about you but I'd much rather take my chances.

This is a relative statement. But for me I know that I've caught myself time and time again becoming too much of a materialistic person. Which, I feel for a lot of youngins is a hard thing NOT to be. I used to think 'well if I have this or that, less of this and more of that then I'll be (insert some high social status or positive emotional state).' And there is very little truth to that. Having 'things' can make you happy. I love my computer, the million clothes in my closet, my phone, etc. But that should never add or subtract to the person you are or how you think of yourself. Your material possessions are NOT your identity.

Grudge

A deep-seated feeling of resentment.
Something that is held against someone for an issue they haven't discussed or resolved peacefully.

"I wish I could believe you then I'll be alright
But now everything you told me really don't apply to the way I feel inside
Loving you was easy once upon a time...

Just can't seem to get over the way you hurt me
Don't know how you gave another who didn't mean a thing the very thing you gave to me
I thought I could forgive you and I know you've changed
As much as I wanna trust you I know it ain't the same

I may never understand why
I'm doing the best that I can and I tried and I tried to forget this
But I'm much too full of resentment "

Beyonce - Resentment

"In french, you don’t really say “I miss you.” You say “tu me manques,” which is closer to “you are missing from me.” I love that. “You are missing from me.” You are a part of me, you are essential to my being. You are like a limb, or an organ, or blood. I cannot function without you."

Augusten Burroughs

"There is no shame in being hungry for another person. There is no shame in wanting very much to share your life with somebody."

-Augusten Burroughs