Friday, June 21, 2013

Word of the day: Delight

1. Great pleasure; joy.
2. Something that gives great pleasure or enjoyment.

There's something He sees in me,
 something worth saving.

He delights in me
Understands my mind
Finds good in my heart
Loves my sense of humor
Cares about what I have to say, how I feel, and what I do.
He delights in every part of me.

And why wouldn't He? He created me after all!
And he created you too.

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Always bring flats and say happy birthday

I'm going to be doing a lot of walking today - I never wear heels without packing a pair of flats/sneakers!!!

Today marks the wonderful day that my eldest sister T was born :D
She's at work today, but even though she's having a birthday thing this weekend I've planned to sneak over to her house to surprise her tonight! Shhhh!

I love my family so much, yall. I've never talked about it so you wouldn't know this but she gave me a place to live a few years ago. She knew I was having a really rough time in high school so she offered me her guest room. She let me do whatever I wanted with it too! I moved in and stayed for almost two years. I am forever grateful to her for that. I used to tell her thank you alllll the time about it. I remember I wrote her a note once and left it for her to find one morning and she told me she cried. But it was tears of joy. 

Families have strong bonds. But I feel like siblings can be the strongest of those bonds.
God has blessed me with 4 older siblings. And I couldn't be more grateful for them.

the last sibling pic we took - 2009 *T is the last on the right

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

Choose to see the GOOD

Every waking moment of every day you have a choice.

And it’s so easy to complain.
It’s so easy to blame everyone else for your misfortune.
It’s so easy to remain stagnated by your own sadness.

You can say “Oh I hate ______. I can’t believe I’m stuck _________.And be completely miserable.
Or you can suck it up, take a step back and choose to say “You know what? I’m blessed to have a roof over my head. I’m blessed to be able to pay all my bills on time. I am so blessed to have a car to escape this place whenever I want.”

*And cue the cliche moment of the day*
It’s all about perception. You can choose to see the glass as half empty. Or the glass could be half full. Which would you rather have?

Monday, June 17, 2013


So when I don’t necessarily know how to explain something I’m struggling to understand I use one of the many easily accessible resources I have- teh interwebz. I love to research ‘old language’ words from time to time to further my studies of the Word, one of the many things I got from my dad ;) 

Right now I’m focusing on understanding doubt.
Doubt is a big deal. And a fatal one at that. There are a million and one things I can think of on this subject but one I want to share is doubt in God’s promises and abilities.

I encourage you to visit the site to read the full article HERE

It’s pretty eye-opening. Of course, I always say take everything with a grain of salt. Because let’s be real; it is the internet guys. Here’s a couple definitions that stuck out to me.


Strong’s definition: 1. Lacking confidence in the performer, unfaithfulness, faithless. 2. Want of faith, unbelief. 3. Weakness of faith. Description: Doubting God’s willingness or ability to alter the circumstances one is in.


Strong’s definition: 1. Doubt/waver. Description: Intellectually reconsidering whether or not something one is believing for can or will occur. Skepticism.

Apistea. He now starts to doubt God’s ability to fulfill His word. His cure is to repent from worrying and direct His trust in God to do what He has said. If he doesn’t do this and continues to worry without putting down that concern, he slips into...
Distazo. He now becomes skeptical and may conclude if it was going to happen, it probably couldn’t happen now, so he may cease to believe as he considers the logic of the situation (as happened with Peter walking on the water). If he doesn’t stick in faith with what he has decided God has shown him, his doubt matures into...
Apeithei. He now consciously disbelieves in God’s promise and may even talk against it! In other words, his "faith" is now in the opposite to what he started out believing for originally! The only cure is full repentance and returning to a position of believing what God has said despite the circumstances he is in.

Friday, June 14, 2013

Summer Lovin' Snail Mail Swap!!

The actual factual reveal day went live on the lovely Kelly's blog The NO Drama Mama on Monday. Can you guess who my partner was? None other than Kelly herself! Lol how cool is that, right?! As usual, I'm late to the party. BUT ALAS FAIR MAIDENS- I have the sacred package in my possession! And it has definitely exceeded my expectations! So grateful for the experience, thank you so much Kelly <3
Can we just take a moment to appreciate her wrapping skillz? And just look at the cute notes she attatched!

the sandals fit to a T! Gracias!
 I laughed out loud on that one :D

 And I don't know how in the world you knew, or maybe you're psychic, but I broke my favorite sunglasses a few weeks ago and I was so sad! (don't ask why I kept them, I think I have a hoarding problem. eeek!) But these adorable polka dotted ones are like a carbon copy!! And they happen to be sturdier (is that a word?) than my old pair too.

Holy moly, I couldn't be more appreciative. And I can't say thanks enough Miss Kelly! This lil box has put such a smile on my face and really made my day week month SUMMER!

 Just goes to show, you never know what something small can do for a person.


There are times when I feel like I need to save myself. I let my ego take over and I think I’m a superhero. But I don’t have all the answers, I never did. And as hard as I try I never will. I’ve run out of options and escape plans from A-Z. I’m too defiant to surrender and to prideful to call for reinforcements. So what's a girl to do?!

God has a plan for everything. He’s already worked out a way to get me through to the other side of my struggles. The only thing I need to do is be still. It’s when you start to fight your problems yourself instead that you begin to create problems fo yoself.
  1.  Your constant worry and your insistence on worrying is saying that you don’t trust him. That you are doubtful of His word that He will lead you to the other side. God said don’t doubt him.
Only it must be in faith that he asks with no wavering (no hesitating, no doubting). For the one who wavers (hesitates, doubts) is like the billowing surge out at sea (the waves) that is blown hither and thither and tossed by the wind." James 1: 6
UH HELLO! Ain’t nobody got time to be blown ‘hither and thither’ by no wind! 

     2.  All fighting does is prolong the situation keeping you absolutely miserable in the process. Why make things more complicated than you need to?

So a couple things need to happen here... And believe me; I’ve been fighting my entire life so I understand that it’s a lot easier said than done. You need to accept the fact that whatever it is that you’re dealing with is out of your control at this point. It’s bigger than you.  Swallow your pride. Allow Him to take control. 

Are you like me and hate having to admit that you’re not actually Wonder Woman? That sometimes you need help? No problem! The cool thing about it is nobody has to know- a silent prayer can work wonders! This can stay between just you and God.

Believe me my love, as hard as it feels trying to swim and keep your head above the water He will NOT let you drown. I promise.

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Stripes Stripes Stripes!

 We know I like heels, and we know I love plain old black and white, but I'm starting to really like stripes too!
Here's a couple of ways I like to wear 'em :)
*click for larger view*

High waist shorts: Forever 21 // Top: dress cut into a shirt
Leopard headband: scarf from my cousin // Red high heels: Dollhouse

YES that is my tripod in the corner, don't judge me!

 Mini dress: Ross // Black Wedges: DD's // Denim hair bow: D.I.Y. 
White belt: Thrifted // Orange purse: Forever 21

pleated poppy

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

No avail

Tried talking to my dad, no help. I flat out told him that I was sad. Like really really sad. And he talks in circles for an hour about absolutely nothing. I know he thinks he's helping an dI appreciate the fact that he is taking time to try... but it just didn't help me.

I need quiet. Fresh air.
But it's night time.
So I guess I'll just sleep instead.

You deserve TRUE happiness

Don’t ever do that to yourself.

You deserve true happiness.

Choosing to be in space A when you really should be in space B is telling yourself that you don’t deserve B.
“A” is just a placeholder. It’s not meant to be permanent.
You’re fooling yourself if you believe that this is okay. That this will do.
All you will ever feel is empty and unfulfilled.

I know this sounds really disjointed and vague, but this is just what was running through my brain when I saw this lil quote (idk the source) on my Tumblr dash today.